About a month ago things became really hectic. I stopped writing and disappeared from the Stanford community. This became kind of cloudy and I had to reassess a lot. I was exhausted and had to get some priorities in line. I was definitely on the grind, hustling to make things happen. At the same time, I was still reading some dense and difficult theoretical works and thinking about my research. I have stacks of works to review, about 30 books from the library. I’m going to plow through them before August, I promise myself. Right now, I’m juggling two jobs: temping at various sites and my research assistant position at Stanford. I’m still saving and raising money for my trip. I’m focusing on spending time with my family and real friends, because I won’t see them for a year when I go to Egypt.
After the storm had passed, I attended a few events that reminded me of the reason why I am taking this path. One was a conference on the Islamic library and the other an awards dinner for Muslim scholars and entreprenuers. Over the past three years, I have felt like I paid a huge cost. I worked myself into exhaustion. Grad school is trying, and my trade is an isolating field. I didn’t want to write some woe is me blogs. Instead, I focused on commenting on blogs. Sometimes what I read was depressing, other times they present me with challenges that are motivating. But overall, I guess I am aware of the obstacles that I face and I have to have faith that it is worth all the efforts of trying to overcome them. In doing so, maybe we can encourage each other to face our struggles and be better by doing better.
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i can sympathize–the past month has been incredibly crazy and hectic. i also feel like i’ve been working myself into exhaustion and i need to reprioritize. where in egypt are you staying? i have a friend/acquaintance in cairo who blogs here: http://texasandegypt.blogspot.com/ and i have another acquaintance going to cairo soon as well, who’s email i can give you if you’re interested.
Crazy and hectic are words I understand perfectly well. Pls take sometime out to take care of yourself. No one else will, not because they are unkind, but because they may not notice or maybe quite simply because you disguise it so well and make everything seem so easy. I know that my standard reply to people when they ask how I am is “fine thank-you”; even when I am on the verge of a nervous breakdown. Thank-you for taking time out of your schedule to do your blog. It is very real and relevant, but please sister, take care!