Diary of a Tired Muslim Woman

So this is hell. I’d never have believed it. You remember all we were told about the torture-chambers, the fire and brimstone, the “burning marl.” Old wives’ tales! There’s no need for red-hot pokers. Hell is other people!

Jean-Paul Sartre

Yes I said it. I’m tired. Tired of the insanity. I am sort of speechless and really can’t articulate what I’m upset about. But the madness that is rampant in the world is disturbing. I don’t mean the kind of harmless insanity, but the diabolical, self-righteous insanity. It bothers me that some twisted leaders are using media to indoctrinate children and radicalize them. It is bad enough that they indoctrinate weak minded adult men. People are in denial about the cult of martyrdom that exists in some cultures. I haven’t been to Palestine, so I don’t know the extent of these attitudes in the occupied territories.

The show reminds me that ideologies that justify terrorism (and violence) is spreading in the Muslim world. Not to be mean or racist, but in the 90s many of us Muslims considered suicide bombings a tactic used by Palestinians for their nationalist cause. Every Muslim I knew considered terrorism un-Islamic. We refused to accept the fact that Muslim leaders were manipulating the religion to justify send young men out to die. Over time, the occurences increased and spread to places like the Philipines, Chechnya, London, India, Pakistan, Afghanistan, Egypt, Iraq, etc… I have to call this the mainstreaming of terrorism. And the acts are so widespread that I can’t buy into the lame conspiracy theories that deny that Muslims are committing atrocities.

The vast majority of Muslims do not agree with terrorism. And in fact, we are more in danger of terrorist violence than non-Muslims. If you look at the casualty figures, you’ll see that more Muslims are killed than anybody else. I’m just afraid that if we stand by silently, that the mainstreaming of terrorism will continue to spread. Terrorism is just one of the issues that wears me down. Violence against women, racism, sectarianism, ethnic violence, tribalism, exploitation, corruption, backwardness, injustice, political ineptitude, repression, oppression, marginalisation, isolation, etc…. all these social ills are exhausting.I’m not saying I’m out for the count a little fatigue can be good. But sometimes I feel like I need a breather from all the drama.

8 thoughts on “Diary of a Tired Muslim Woman

  1. Salaam,

    It is exhausting, isn’t it? It all makes me feel very depressed and beat down. Don’t know what to do about it all, except maybe want to take a break from the world for just a few days or something.


  2. As salaamu alaikum,

    I feel you. When I think about it, it all seems so daunting. I have to go back to that old saying…”You can only eat an elephant one piece at a time”, or something like that.


  3. A suicide bomber just recently exploded himself in peshawar in Pakistan, and I was so surprised because it is very unoften that you hear of such things in Pakistan. There are bombs often, but suicide bombs? I think part of this has to do with a spread of the suicide as not exclusively a nationalist tool. Pretty sad to see this in your backyard.


  4. Yeah. Its pretty scary. In all of our defensiveness as Muslims, we deny the truth about the problems that exist within the Ummah. We give these PC “brochure Islamic” answers, instead of putting our energy into changing the sickness that is plaguing our community. Its amazing what outrages the Muslim community, offensive cartoons of the Prophet (PBUH), are indeed problematic, but where is this collective rage at a woman being gang raped in Pakistan, or at the suicide bombing epidemic. Its scary. How can we make an effective change amidst the madness?


  5. Terrorism is in the Quran…but it is used clinically..no killing of women, children, old men, religous figures, destruction buildings, and no usage of weapons that might cause the aformentioned. By the time a legitimate muslim government declares a war in this day and age they are prohibited from using any modern weaponory…which leaves the muslim with words, dialogue, and economic solutions….

    terrorism is in the quran….


  6. Pickthall: [8.57] If thou come on them in the war, deal with them so as to strike fear in those who are behind them, that haply they may remember. ….this is a verse that instructs the mujahid to strike fear in the hearts of the enemy…meaning the quraysh and their allies…it does not mean at anytime with everyone since it was revealed for a specific war.


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